If I fall again and than get left there I am not getting back up.
If I don't have my life changing moment soon I'll have an anxiety attack.
If another book ends in my tears on the floor I will stop reading.
If this doesnt progress to something more soon I will go on lockdown.
If another person tells me I am to smart to hate school I will shoot them in the fucking face.
If I don't get to drop out this year I will refuse to do any of my work, therefor failing yet a second year in a row.
If another song isnt written for me soon that has a happy ending I will be forced to never trust a writer again.
If my mom tells me I am not her mom one more time I will the throw her beer can in her face and tell her how stupid she is.
If my father asks me if my mom has a new boyfriend yet again I will tell him about all of them she has aquired since they split and hurt him like I have been avoiding.
If I dont meet the guy from the Interstate ever again I will cry the day I die.
If I am forced to sit through another hour of someone elses crying my heart may just explode.
If one more person passes by and doesnt ask the question I can see they know they should my room may flood.
If all of these changes dont lead to a good one I may kick a hole from here to China. If things dont become better soon, I dont know what will happen, but I do know it will suck.
But I Promise To Try To Be More Positive.